current mood: extremely uncomfortable.

have i been thinking too much recently?
i just cant stop myself from thinking..
loads of stuffs on my mind..
mostly are work-related.

damn it.
have i always been taking things too hard?
i simply wish i can take things easy.
well, i believe i do enjoy wat im doing right now.
but..
environment does play a big role too..
or is it cos the problem lies with me?
i feel im being treated as invisible..
colleagues seem to pretend they cant see me when we ran into each other..
and walk separately when heading towards the same direction..
i admit im extremely sensitive on this.
but i do wish to be close to them.
i just dun understand why i cant blend in.
simply have this "left out" feeling.
of cos it does not feel good! :(

and please. i dun wanna give my heart out to someone again.
perhaps this is good for me on the other hand?
i dunno how am i going to walk thru monday's dinner in branch.
dun wanna feel left out again..
real vexed..