my heart says "stop deceiving urself."
what am i supposed to do?
i hope all these are just my dream.
and i will wake up soon.
the guy doesnt exist,
the bitch doesnt exist too.
and im still leading my life happily.
really cant believe the guy's taste is this bad.
like someone who is damn attitude.
tsk tsk.
how sad.
i am still wondering whether the rumours are true or not.
can't help but kept thinking.
any ans to it? i just wonder..
i guess this time my sixth sense is wrong again.. :(
went lunch with 2 colleagues today.
though we lunched tgt.
somehow i feel it's still quite stranger-liked.
well, colleagues can nv be as close as sch frens.
this is one pt that i have been convincing myself.
i tried getting close to them but to no avail.
i had tried my best.
perhaps some things are just meant to be.
i even tot of quitting my job.
but wat comes next after quitting?
childcare? NIE?
or just any job tt comes along?
i need a degree.
i wanna go back to the bank as an SO.
so shld i quit? i wonder..
i hope i arent having any feelings for him..
have been trying hard not to though..
still struggling..
