As usual, work has been stressful.
Especially when you had a siao kia as colleague.
Who is so bloody SENSITIVE about everything.
Damn abnormal.

Hmmm..
Had dessert at MOF tonight with ling and jean.
That guy actually gave us a 30% discount!!!
Which is like a lot.
And we din actually notice it until we got out of there.
I was like asking how much to pay per pax.
Ling said $10/pax.
I was like "HUH!? SO CHEAP MEH?"
Cos I remembered my dessert alone cost $8.80 on the menu.
And we din actually thank him!
Ling and Jean was fooling around and I was on the phone.
Maybe next time when he come to the bank to make a deposit.

Program for the week:
20th: mugging UOB notes at home, chilling out at night.
21st: Father's Day and dad's birthday celebration!!!!!
23rd: trip to PSB to confirm enrollment!!
24th: branch's june & july babies celebration
probably KTV for one of the weekdays with ling!

seriously need to destress.
=)

Really.
So sick of those recent happenings.
I'm really tired. I need a break seriously.
The stress that I'm facing at work..
Anders actually said that it's good that I feel the stress.
Cause' at least it meant that I cared.
Well, this is the positive side.
I can't really handle stress well actually.
All I did is to put up a strong front. Whatever.

Life is full of problems.
I wish I can actually sleep forever, never having to wake up..

But well,
all these targets are to be met:
- getting at least a compliment from customers
- try submitting a piece of work for BE @ UOB
- starting to motivate myself and hopefully it does help to motivate my colleagues as well
- clear as much filing as I can daily

omg. so much to be done.
feeling the stress as I list the to-do-list
zzzzzzzzz

Life has been really BORED.
Am I missing him or what?
I really don't know.
Gosh.
I aren't really looking forward to having fun.
What's happening?

Pubbing on Friday is also bloody bored.
With hong, hao, choo lie and crystal.
Choo lie and Crystal left early.
Only me, hong and hao stayed till 2am.
Plus 2 other unknown friends.
I'm really getting more and more dissatisfied with life.

People around me seems to be so busy with r/s.
Lin: can't live w/o jun - as usual.
Ange: don't know what she's up to recently =x
and everyone seems busy.
I can't believe I actually stayed home this sat & sun.
That explains why I'm totally bored.
and Sharon is so busy with work.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH
BOREDDDDDDD

and I fucking hate work.
all the bullshits I'm getting is really testing my patience.
all the bloody commentss.
Oh my.
Why can't you people just shut up and get on with your own work?

Life at work has been stressful - as usual.
Seriously, I don't know what seems to be wrong with the backroom side (mainly officers).
Officer A has got a really big mouth and likes to pass hurtful comments which make us, as subordinate, feels unwelcomed in the office.
Officer B is in a foul mood and seems to be taking it out on us.
Basically, besides boss right - there's only 3 officers sitting in the backroom office.
sighs.
Hurtful comments passed by you guys really ruined our day.

I'm not sure about my colleagues.
I just feel comments like "I don't understand how you people work. Can't you people just do your job properly?" (or something similar to this) is really very discouraging.
To me, it seems like you are looking down on us as tellers?
Though I admit you are really capable at work, I still feel there's no need to actually look down on other people.
"Aiyah, 小妹妹每次做错东西的啦。像昨天的 case 我等一下还要打给 customer follow up."
Hhhmmm...
Yeah. I'm being looked down upon.
BUT there's no need to pass this comment right in front of me.
Who actually taught me to be humble?
Why is it that you are not practising what you preach?

Whatever it is.
I missed out getting customer's signature on transaction voucher again yesterday.
He threw my voucher to me.
Though he apologised, I still feel really pissed.
Is there really a need to do so?
Seems like teacher and student eh?

WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

work has been rather stress these cpl of weeks.
and guess it still will be for the rest of the weeks man.
i have been trying my best to learn whatever i can.
to absorb whatever i can.
everyone had been trying to teach me too.
especially greatful to the CSOs.

well,
i wonder what brought abt the chng in officer though.
suddenly passed such comments.
"aiyah xmm every make mistakes. like ystd tt case,
later still must call customer to follow up."
come on lor. i seek ur advice before deciding.
yet this is what i get.
forget it.
lotsa pple got it from officer today.
i guess for that $1k+ we need to go thru this.
whatever it is.
i will just give it my best shot!

maybe this has always been what i am.
the kind of take it one step at a time.
they called it "zhou yi bu suan yi bu"
but i realise once i stepped out into the workforce,
i have to start changing.
i have to show i'm real committed (which i do not really know how to)
i have to show i'm really prepared to learn.
i have to show i have the capability and potential to do well.
i have to show this and that. it's really this and that.
i have never been so stress in my life before.
not even during the time when im taking my "o" level.

had a one-to-one talk with boss.
i'm not sure whether things are as bad as i think.
i really dunno.
as she's new to the branch, she gathered feedback from officers.
she said that it's not really negative feedbacks.
it's just that there is still a lot of room for improvement.
to me it really seems like negative feedback seriously.
as long as it's not positive, it's negative!
this is really discouraging...
"i'm giving u permission to learn account opening with the CSOs"
this is what she told me.
so today i was like running both high and low counters.
seriously it sucks.
it's like u're really feeling sucky deep inside yet you have to show
that you actually have a damn blardy positive attitude.
tell me how to package myself. TELL me!

but i'm really thankful for my colleague's encouragement:
- Hui Ling: thanks for willing to be my main teacher for this one week. you are really patient with me. i know u're real busy but u still bother to spend time explaining the work process to me!

- Anders: thanks for encouraging and motivating me by showing ur "high" attitude. hahaha. really appreciate it man. ur advices are always straight to the point and are real useful! and the most scary thing about u: you knew what i'm thinking! eerie isn't it?

- Jac: thanks for being so encouraging when i'm feeling real down after the one-to-one talk this morning. and for offering me my breakfast!

- Jean: thanks for jioing me out after work. it kinda helps.

- Siew Lan: thanks for reminding me every now and then on what i'm supposed to do! though u really might get naggy at times... bwahahaha..

well, also thanks to the rest of you who played excellent teamwork!

sometimes when i'm really feel down and wanted to give up, i have to admit u guys really play an important role. ur jokes and company really made my day. this is also one of the reasons why i rejected MOE and chose to stay in UOB. since i had already chosen to stay in UOB, i swear i will work hard to achieve my goal.

i'm given a week's time to prove myself.
time to get to work.. =)

few things that's on my shopping list:

heels
bag
pretty dresses
ipod touch

and i wanna do soft rebonding..

well, work have been rather okay this couple of months.
colleagues made my time rather easy to past.
their craps and jokes are really crazy. hahaha.
and i guess i had already blend in with them.
its really fun to be making fun of one another.
just that i have to be more careful in my area of work.
i hope i dun make anymore stupid mistakes.
i'm trying to concentrate more and open my eyes bigger to look at cheques!
cos i seem to either overlook on the dates or signatures.
i admit it's rather irritating for the officers to keep calling up customers and asking them to come back to the branch to do amendments.
sorry! i will work harder on this area! i promise! =.=

i hope i will be moving on to the role of customer service officer soon.
it's been like 11months now.
and those that's in the same batch as me is already doing ac opening.
when will it be my turn? sighs.
maybe i'm just not gd enough. i dunno.



r/s have not been smooth sailing though.
i hope he does understand that life still carries on even w/o me.
i know he's reluctant to end it.
and im not really sure of myself too.
i hope everything will blow over soon.
i've been telling myself to let go..
just let go and let nature takes its course..
im washing my hands off..
as wat hong said, he shld be out since he won't be in the picture.
yeah.
wont be in the picture and never will..