life had somewhat resume back to normal for me.
at least i stop crying for the slightest things.
thanks to anders.
for I knew I just have not found ways to express myself.

last night was chaotic.
i got so drunk until i can't rmb what i did.
my memories stopped at the card game.
and the rest was in bits and pieces.
all i knew was i kept hugging guan ming and can't stop crying.
my mind was full of memories of the past 2yrs+ r/s.
i don't know why. and i kept crying.
it just seems that i gave him up for the sake of having fun myself.

and what really happened before tt i dun have any recollection.
only rmbed rui xiang kept asking me qns
and i asked randy whether my ans is correct or not.
so it's as gd as rui xiang asking randy instead. LOL.
i dun even rmb giving rui xiang my number.
totally cannot make it.

and then the next thing i rmbed.
taking a walk with randy and rui xiang outside.
i can't even walk straight.
and they had to hold my hands.
left and right.

worst night ever.